We lack charity - the one thing necessary. As St. Catherine of Siena reveals to us, we lack self-knowledge. Getting old and constantly striving to know oneself, gradually unmasks our self-delusion. It really is a problem of charity.
In knowing yourself, you will come to know better the overflowing generosity of my charity. But if you make no effort to know yourself, [you won’t know me]. Because you don’t know me, you won’t love me. And because you don’t love me, you won’t serve me. As soon as you are deprived of me, you automatically return to your wretched selfish love for yourself, since you cannot live without love….This is how viciously I am offended by my creatures! - Meditation June 12, 2018