The Feast of Stephen.
I should write something - especially after the last post. I don't know what to write however. I also don't feel like it.
At one point I stopped really preparing for Christmas. I sent out some cards, but didn't finish. I think a lot of people didn't send cards. Word must have gotten around that Darold died, because he didn't receive any cards. A couple of his friends were my friends too, and they never even acknowledged his death when I sent them notice, much less responded with a Christmas card. That was a good lesson for me - I believed they were my friends - but they were simply being polite. The Imitation of Christ has some things to say about that - which helped me very much. It is better for me. It's a lesson I always need repeating - those who flatter you deceive you. Likewise, it's could to have people recognize our faults and failings, As St. Philip Neri admonished: "He who cannot put up with the loss of his honour, can never make any advance in spiritual things."
There you have it, and I'm quite content to accept my outcast state.
When, in disgrace with fortune and men’s eyes,
I all alone beweep my outcast state,
And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries,
And look upon myself and curse my fate,
Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,
Featured like him, like him with friends possessed,
Desiring this man’s art and that man’s scope,
With what I most enjoy contented least;
Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,
Haply I think on thee, and then my state,
(Like to the lark at break of day arising
From sullen earth) sings hymns at heaven’s gate;
For thy sweet love remembered such wealth brings
That then I scorn to change my state with kings. - Sonnet 29
In conclusion, one excellent gift has been the reconnecting with my family, especially my sister and nieces and relatives. For much of my life I thought of friends - many of whom are no longer in touch with me - as family. While my real family felt alienated without understanding why. Our Lady Undoer of Knots took care of that!