My family gets frustrated with me because I don't go where they want me to go but I can't. I make lots of excuses, lies really, and if I lie then I feel like a disappointment to Christ. I think,"I'm a crappy christian because Christ would want me to visit with other people."
After a full day of schmoozing at my daughters wedding I literally felt sick. I think it's weird and I've never been able to understand this aspect of my personality.
At public gatherings I say to myself, I seriously love you people but go away.
I used to lie as well, but I got in trouble with people even with the excuses, so now I just say I'm not coming - altho one recent event I just didn't show up and afterwards sent a note explaining why I couldn't - no lying - so I'm sure they just write me off as being nuts.
I tend to bolt, taking the family dog with me, at my husband's family gatherings, walking miles through their suburban neighborhoods. I am ashamed of my behavior. They are good people, but they have a very different sense of humor than mine. It would be a good mortification to sit and listen to their jokes-such a minor thing. Why can't I do this?
Please comment with charity and avoid ad hominem attacks. I exercise the right to delete comments I find inappropriate. If you use your real name there is a better chance your comment will stay put.
Wait, that's your excuse? "But Garbo blew off Princess Grace..."
ReplyDeleteI know, I'm pathetic.
ReplyDeleteMy family gets frustrated with me because I don't go where they want me to go but I can't. I make lots of excuses, lies really, and if I lie then I feel like a disappointment to Christ. I think,"I'm a crappy christian because Christ would want me to visit with other people."
ReplyDeleteAfter a full day of schmoozing at my daughters wedding I literally felt sick. I think it's weird and I've never been able to understand this aspect of my personality.
At public gatherings I say to myself, I seriously love you people but go away.
I'm pathetic-er. :|
I used to lie as well, but I got in trouble with people even with the excuses, so now I just say I'm not coming - altho one recent event I just didn't show up and afterwards sent a note explaining why I couldn't - no lying - so I'm sure they just write me off as being nuts.
ReplyDeleteI feel this way a lot. Belinda, are you an introvert and/or a melancholic (temperament)?
ReplyDeleteI tend to bolt, taking the family dog with me, at my husband's family gatherings, walking miles through their suburban neighborhoods. I am ashamed of my behavior. They are good people, but they have a very different sense of humor than mine. It would be a good mortification to sit and listen to their jokes-such a minor thing. Why can't I do this?
ReplyDelete