Be patient with me, Lord.
I have tried very hard to understand what is going on and I have tried to be charitable and accepting ... especially of myself. I know I've been wrong about many things, too trusting and all of that. I feel like a sheep without a shepherd, and no one is calling my name. Maybe I don't recognize their voice, or worse maybe I don't want to.
I need to try and figure out what is happening.
I wonder if our times are simply more like the 11th century rather than the 'Great Apostasy' or the final 'end times'? I was reading an older article in CWR on The Book of Gomorrah and thought it must be more like the 11th century than anything else.
This is one of the most interesting and relevant aspects of the book for the modern reader. Damian sees “sodomitic vice” as not only including homosexual acts (which he holds to be the most grievous kind of sodomy) but any form of sexual perversion, which notably includes contraception and masturbation, which he regards as closely related. In chapter four he notes that God “struck Onan, the son of Jude, with an untimely death because of this nefarious offense,” that is, spilling his seed upon the ground rather than completing the sexual act in the natural way.
I believe that by placing contraception and masturbation under the heading of “sodomy” Damian is recognizing a truth that seems to be all but completely forgotten among Catholics today, and that is that the sexual revolution and the rise of the social acceptance of unnatural sexual behavior is rooted in a contraceptive mentality that divorces the sexual act from its natural procreative purpose, and tends to make it into an act of selfish, narcissistic lust. Given the almost universal acceptance of contraception in our society, is it surprising that we have become so numb and unconcerned about the rise of more perverse forms of the same fundamental vice, and even applaud them? - Matthew Cullinan Hoffman
Today may be much worse because men in the Church promote sodomy as a virtue, not a vice - hence the general confusion and falling away. I've been rather dismissive of that. One must be careful lest one lose one's soul.
The reason it is important to me to figure this out should be obvious, though the damage has been done.
Fixing a hole.