If you don't do a lot of penance - or even if you do - get yourself really sick.
So sick you can't pray or rest or sleep or eat. So sick you can't even think a good thought, except to recall this or that in your life that makes you moan or regret or feel so ashamed that you can't even hide it.
I'm not kidding.
When you finally get a lucid moment, you will not care what anyone thinks or says about you or anyone else. You will not care about controversies regarding the pope or the president or anyone. Your faith will be clarified, purified another degree.
I think I'm going to throw up now.