The Tuesday before Ash Wednesday.
If tomorrow wasn't Ash Wednesday, the first reading for Mass would most likely be from Wednesday of the Ninth Week of Ordinary Time, Tobit's prayer for death. I am always consoled by all of the Old Testament prophets' conduct in dejection, as well as their prayers for death in the face of failure or disappointment - even insult. It isn't just a Jewish thing to want to stick your head in the oven and pour out your lament to God. God knows "of what we are made, he remembers we are dust." - Ps. 102: 14. Sometimes I pray with the prophet:
"Yes, your judgements are many and true
in dealing with me as my sins deserve.
For I have not kept your commandments,
nor have I trodden the paths of truth before you.
So now deal with me as you please,
and command my life breath to be taken from me,
that I may go from the face of the earth
into dust..." - Tobit 3
"Unless the seed falls to the ground and dies..." That is an awesome saying.