Thursday, April 24, 2014

The Singing Priest Sings Again: You Raise Me Up

It's a Susan Boyle moment.

It's just weird.  I wonder if he knows "Wind Beneath My Wings"?

He has a fine voice.

So does the Italian nun Sr. Cristina - but at least she saves her pop tunes for television... Nuns just want to have fun?

What is with this stuff?  I blame Simon Cowell and all the People Can Sing reality shows.

Lately it has been difficult to take priests and bishops seriously - consistently, that is.  After all the scandals, all the confusion about priestly lifestyle - bishops building and selling mansions.  Priests as pop stars and celebrities, exorcists and demons.  Catholics protesting Catholic moral teaching in their schools, Cardinal against Cardinal, and so on.  The scandals, the conflicting messages, the strange behaviour of priests and religious in the world - out of the world, on stage - off stage, what have you: These 'scandals' have really hurt the image of the priesthood - not to mention religious life.

I have never been as tempted to be critical or skeptical as I have been lately.  The Church is being made a fool of and it isn't the folly of the cross doing it.  If only it was.

Mass isn't a performance or a talent show.  Neither is religious life.

Pope Francis makes private phone calls.

"No, we do not listen in on the Holy Father's phone calls
 - check with United States NSA."*

Everyone knows the story by now.

The Pope called an Argentine woman married to a divorced man.  The woman's husband was the first to inform the media - claiming the Holy Father told his wife she could go to Communion - that she was doing nothing wrong.  The implication being it is now permitted that divorced and remarried Catholics may receive the sacraments.  Even the Pope cannot say that a sin is not a sin.  Tongues are wagging, but none of us know the details of the alleged conversation.

Did the Pope really say that? - The Vatican is not commenting.
"It's between the Pope and the woman," said the Rev. Thomas Rosica, a consultant for the Vatican press office. - CNN
Take note - the husband alerted the media - not the wife.  The Pope did not tell the husband what the wife claimed he said to her.  Only the wife spoke to the Pope, because she had written a letter 6 months earlier. She only told her husband what the Pope had to say to her after she got off the phone.  I suspect an excited somebody may have gotten a few things mixed up - or maybe heard what they wanted to hear.  Perhaps the wife didn't tell her husband the whole story?  Maybe the couple already lives together as brother and sister?

We don't know.  We won't know unless the Holy Father makes a statement or someone in authority issues a clarification.

That said, the advice given to another penitent should remain confidential, between the pastor and the penitent.  One size does not fit all.  We just do not know what was said.  Truth be told, what was said is none of our business nor is it our responsibility.

Just remember, Catholic doctrine on marriage and divorce cannot change.

St. John of the Cross wrote several precautions on how to be a good religious.  Though they are directed more or less to cloistered religious, the 'spirit' of his doctrine may be helpful for ordinary Catholics to consider.  Especially for those of us who can be distracted by sensationalized stories regarding the Pope and what he purportedly said in private conversations.  The following precaution pertains to the attitude the subject should have towards his superior.

The second precaution
12. Let the second precaution be that you always look on the superior as though on God, no matter who he happens to be, for he takes God's place. And note that the devil, humility's enemy, is a great and crafty meddler in this area. Much profit and gain come from considering the superior in this light, but serious loss and harm lie in not doing so. Watch, therefore, with singular care that you not dwell on your superior's character, mode of behavior, ability, or any other methods of procedure, for you will so harm yourself as to change your obedience from divine to human, being motivated only by the visible traits of the superior, and not by the invisible God whom you serve through him.
Your obedience is vain and all the more fruitless in the measure that you allow the superior's unpleasant character to annoy you or his good and pleasing manners to make you happy. For I tell you that by inducing religious to consider these modes of conduct, the devil has ruined a vast number of them in their journey toward perfection. Their acts of obedience are worth little in God's sight, since they allow these considerations to interfere with obedience.
If you do not strive, with respect to your personal feelings, to be unconcerned about whether this one or another be superior, you will by no means be a spiritual person, nor will you keep your vows well. - Collected Works
Official Catholic teaching is not released over the phone or through social media.

*UPDATE: What Fr. Lombardi really said:

Several telephone calls have taken place in the context of Pope Francis’ personal pastoral
Since they do not in any way form part of the Pope's public activities, no information or
comments are to be expected from the Holy See Press Office.
That which has been communicated in relation to this matter, outside the scope of personal
relationships, and the consequent media amplification, cannot be confirmed as reliable, and is
a source of misunderstanding and confusion.
Therefore, consequences relating to the teaching of the Church are not to be inferred from
these occurrences. - Vatican Radio, 4/24/14

Jimmy Akin has the best analysis of this story, go here.

"Listen here! I've just about had it with your prank calls!"

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Divine Mercy and the Canonizations

These are the two olive trees and the two lampstands
 that stand before the Lord of the earth.

A great event is taking place the weekend.

Something Blessed Pope John Paul II said:
“Right from the beginning of my ministry in St. Peter’s See in Rome, I considered this message (of Divine Mercy) my special task. Providence has assigned it to me in the present situation of man, the Church and the world. It could be said that precisely this situation assigned that message to me as my task before God.” - JP II 1981, at the Shrine of Merciful Love in Italy
Something Blessed John XXIII said:
"In these days, which mark the beginning of this Second Vatican Council, it is more obvious than ever before that the Lord's truth is indeed eternal. Human ideologies change. Successive generations give rise to varying errors, and these often vanish as quickly as they came, like mist before the sun.

The Church has always opposed these errors, and often condemned them with the utmost severity. Today, however, Christ's Bride prefers the balm of mercy to the arm of severity. She believes that, present needs are best served by explaining more fully the purport of her doctrines, rather than by publishing condemnations." - John XXIII Opening Address for the Council
Something Pope Francis said:
In his homily for the Canonization, which took place in 2000, John Paul II emphasized that the message of Jesus Christ to Sr Faustina is located, in time, between the two World Wars and is intimately tied to the history of the 20th century. And looking to the future he said: “What will the years ahead bring us? What will man’s future on earth be like? We are not given to know. However, it is certain that in addition to new progress there will unfortunately be no lack of painful experiences. But the light of divine mercy, which the Lord in a way wished to return to the world through Sr Faustina’s charism, will illumine the way for the men and women of the third millennium” (Homily, Sunday, 30 April 2000). It is clear. Here it is explicit, in 2000, but it was something that had been maturing in his heart for some time. Through his prayer, he had this intuition. 
Today we forget everything far too quickly, even the Magisterium of the Church! Part of this is unavoidable, but we cannot forget the great content, the great intuitions and gifts that have been left to the People of God. And Divine Mercy is one of these. - Address to the Parish Priests of Rome

Jesus, I trust in you.

Happy Feast Day to Jorge and Georg ...

Feast of St. George.

I think it may be transferred this year because it falls in Easter Week.

Happy feast day anyway.

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Earth Day ...


Archbishop Nienstedt's Deposition

The deposition of Archbishop Nienstedt was made public today - it's all over local news - video of the Archbishop responding to a series of questions.  The Archdiocese has posted the released documents as well, go here and here.

The poor Archbishop looks and sounds like someone 'put on the spot' - and he was - the attorney does not hide his hostility towards Nienstedt.  Obviously some mistakes were made over time, but I no longer have much to say on the issues under scrutiny in this deposition.  The Archbishop is definitely NOT lying.  Being a much weaker man, if I were the Archbishop I'd walk off the job and say to hell with it.  I don't know how anyone can endure such scrutiny and defamation for so long a time.  May God give him strength.

It is especially creepy considering the other story that broke this week: Vatican documents reveal that Church officials knew there were problems with Fr. Marcial Maciel as early as 1948 - that was during the Pontificate of Pius XII.

The Vatican's envoy to Spain sends the Vatican's Congregation for Religious an investigator's report to determine if Maciel's new association should be approved as a religious order. The investigator, the Jesuit Rev. Lucio Rodrigo, reports violations of the confessional seal, that Maciel falsified documents, demonstrates "a certain moral lassitude," and lives a life that "wasn't very pious and at the same time quite comfortable." - Source

Yet Paul VI didn't recognize what crack the smoke of Satan was filtering through?  Creepy.

Corrado Giaquinto: Satan Before the Lord 

"We are living on borrowed time ..."

“Oh Lord, be merciful to me, a sinner” (Lk. 18:13).

Pope Francis said that.

He was speaking to the priests of Rome during their retreat last Month.  He was speaking on Divine Mercy, once again pointing out that we are "living in a time of mercy, for the past thirty years or more, up to today.
“We are not here to take part in a pleasant retreat…but rather to hear the voice of the Spirit speaking to the whole Church of our time.” Any place, even Rome, is every place. The Spirit speaks to “the whole Church of our time, which is a time of mercy.” - Pope Francis
A couple excerpts from Fr. Schall's article:

"Logically, a time of mercy or of grace would mean that era should be otherwise. We are living on borrowed time. Here, Francis recalls the canonization of Sister Faustina Kowalska and the Divine Mercy Sunday that John Paul II began. At that time, John Paul II clarified a most significant doctrine. God, John Paul observed, would forgive everything that could be forgiven. Some things even God could not forgive. What are these? On those men who refused to be forgiven—who reject mercy—God cannot impose His will. He does not wish to undermine genuine free will. To do so, would undermine the whole redemptive order, the whole worth of His free relation to man. Heaven cannot be populated by human beings who refuse to be there, whose lives indicate they do not want to be there.

The Pope adds that besides “open wounds,” we have “hidden wounds.” “There are people who distance themselves through shame.” They do not want their wounds to be seen, so they hide themselves. They are “bitter against the Church, but deep down there is a wound. They want a caress!” The Pope then asks the Roman clergy whether they know “the wounds of your parishioners?” To be close to them is “the only question.” This reflection leads the Pope back to the rigorist and laxist priests. “It is normal that there be differences in the style of confessors, but these differences cannot regard the essential, that is, sound moral doctrine and mercy.” Francis doubts if either the rigorist or the laxist confessor ever really knows the problem of the penitent. “True mercy takes the person into one’s care, listens to him attentively, approaches the situation with respect and truth, and accompanies him on the journey of reconciliation.” This journey has to include “pastoral suffering, which is a form of mercy.” It is not an easy journey to suffer with someone. - Catholic World Report
Divine Mercy - if you have left the Church and the sacraments, if you are sad like Mary Magdalen, weeping, unconsoled at the tomb; or if you are like the disciples who disappointed, left Jerusalem for Emmaus, do not lose heart - turn to the Divine Mercy.

H/T PML for Catholic World Report article.

I kind of like Earth Day.


Monday, April 21, 2014

Can you draw?

Portrait of an old man. 
Shania McDonagh

The artist is 16 years old.  Story here.

I'm burning all my work.

Spring clean up: First, the blog.

This morning I went through the archives deleting posts - it takes so much time and as far as I know there is no easy way to do it.

I'm trying to eliminate 'gossip' posts and the negative-complaint style of posts - rants, and so on.  In the process I've come across posts wherein I thought I was being humorous, although it now comes off as sarcastic and flippant - I didn't think it was funny.  In fact the majority of what I post is rather embarrassing.  I almost deleted the blog.  Someone suggested I keep all the old writing - but it's worthless to me now.

There are a very few posts I think are worth keeping, otherwise it's been a waste of eight years and countless hours.

I know I write about quitting or deleting my stuff from time to time - and do nothing - but lately it really strikes me as a waste of time.

It's not just the blog.

Sunday, April 20, 2014

If you ever leave the Church - or cease going to Mass and the sacraments...

Remember you still have a Mother.

Keep praying - at the very least, the devotion of the three Hail Marys.  Never give Our Lady up.  The Blessed Virgin never gives up on us.

Mass Chat: Easter Sunday, Cardinal Dolan on Face the Nation and the Church is so much bigger than this little Catholic bubble we call the Blogosphere.

Christ appears to His Mother.

My apologies ahead of time...

I went to the Basilica of St. Mary in Minneapolis for Easter Mass this morning.  I felt as if I just got out of a cloister and was thrown into the real world - albeit a beautiful world.  Truly, the liturgy was awesome, on a grand scale.  The church was magnificent, candles everywhere, chant and Latin and traditional hymns.  So not like my bare bones parish church.  Did I mention the church was packed?  A devout and reverent crowd, kneeling, bowing, standing, participating.  I don't get out much - obviously - but let me tell you there is nothing wrong with the Ordinary Form of Mass.  Nothing.  The people in this little Catholic bubble of online gossip, complaining and condemnation, who write against the Ordinary Form of Mass and the Pope and the Bishops, are really a minority within the Church - if indeed all of them actually are part of the Church.

That said, Carinal Dolan was on Face the Nation this morning, this mornings show was heavily focused, and favorably so, upon Pope Francis, Catholics, Hobby Lobby and so on.  Nora O'Donnell interviewed the Cardinal and mention a recent poll was highly favorable as regards the Church and newcomers coming in.  The Cardinal attributed it to Pope Francis - yes - the Francis effect is warmly regarded.  Dolan did well in the interview - yes he is media savvy and seems to be choosing his words more carefully.  When pressed about 'changes' the Pope might bring - Dolan was specific in affirming Catholic teaching, while emphasizing the fact that nothing doctrinal can change, in fact it was his most solemn moment in the interview.  Did he say he approved civil unions, nope - but he said he would support the civil rights of those who can't live up to Catholic teaching - including insurance benefits for 'partners' and so on.

Later in the show, the panel once again discussed the Pope Francis effect.

Driving home from Mass this morning I once again wondered how many people at church would even know about Catholic bloggers?  How many ever heard of most of the blogger personalities?  How many share their concerns about washing the feet of women or men or poodles at Holy Thursday.*  How many of these people really care if someone had a sip of something before communion, or if someone ahead of them is chewing gum?  I laughed to myself wondering how many in the congregation even knew about the 3 Days Darkness, an what they would say if you told them about it?  I thought to myself, 'they'd probably look at you, silently pondering what you just said, and then say, "So anyway, Have a nice Easter!"' and then walk away.

The Church is a big place - people can build private chapels, but be really careful you don't separate yourself - or worse - excommunicate yourself.  Especially those of you who would love to see so many others excommunicated.

Yeah.  So anyway, have a nice Easter.

*A commenter on Fr. Z's blog mentioned the story of a priest with a foot fetish as a sort cautionary tale against washing the feet of women.  I couldn't find the comment when I looked again.


Happy Easter

Regina coeli laetare, Alleluia

Saturday, April 19, 2014

The descent among the dead ...

The silence ...

Except for those still clamoring.

"Take warning from the example of Lot's wife who, because she was disturbed at the destruction of Sodom, and all of those perishing, turned back to look. God punished her for this, and she was 'turned into a pillar of salt' (Genesis 19.26). This teaches you that it is the will of God, even if you were living among devils, you should so live as not to turn back in thought to consider what they are doing, but forget them utterly. You are to keep your soul wholly to God, and not to suffer the thought of this or that to disturb you." - John of the Cross

Holy Saturday

Friday, April 18, 2014

Bryan Singer: Accusations of sexual abuse of minors, but he keeps working?

Singer is wearing the shirt.

If he was a priest or a bishop of the Catholic Church, he'd be suspended until proven innocent.

But I digress.

Singer, the famed director of the ever popular X-Men has been accused of sexually abusing a 15 year old boy in the the late '90's with a promise of a part in one of his productions.  It wasn't on a casting couch but at a mansion in LA, in a hot tub.  The mansion was notorious for drugs and sex parties involving under aged boys.  Is Hollywood upset?  Is Hollywood condemning the industry the way the Catholic Church has been condemned?  Is Bryan Singer dragged through the mud, put on suspension, his work boycotted?

What about gay activists and those who claim homosexuals are not interested in under aged boys and that gays have cleaned up their act and just do not do perverted things anymore?

Recently a blogger complained about Disney, corrupting her kids.  Really?  People are only now waking up to the sexual exploitation that takes place in Hollywood?  Are they only now coming to terms with the social engineering and morality changing propaganda that dominates the entertainment media, as well as informs news media?

Bryan Singer allegedly told his victim, "how ‘this group’ controls Hollywood.”  What group was he talking about?  Take a guess.

News story here.  It's pretty disgusting.

Good Friday

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Widows dumped from planes in Alabama.

They were thrown out like cord wood.  Story here.

To see the original ad the gif is from, click here.

Chiara Corbella: A love story.

This is such an amazing story.

I never read her story before today, though I've seen photos and heard stories about her.  What a beautiful young woman of faith - a holy wife and mother.  I was especially moved by what she said to her husband Enrico before she died.

The day of her death, Enrico asked Chiara, if she found Christ’s promise had come true, that the cross was easy, even sweet. She smiled and said yes, it was “molto dolce.” - Story here.

We need to love one another.

The Mandatum

"This is how all will know you for my disciples: by your love for one another."

That is what it is all about, isn't it?  Loving one another.

Why can't we understand that?  Why can't I?

If the local ordinary of the place permits variations to the ritual of washing the feet of the faithful in imitation of Christ when he washed the feet of the disciples, who am I to make a big deal of it?  If the pastor of the parish I go to does it and I'm uncomfortable with it (I'm not) then I can go to another church or offer it up and pray a chaplet or something.  Getting upset or angry, or watching for errors and recording abuses is probably not the best disposition for approaching Holy Communion.

The USCCB addresses the question here:

Because the gospel of the mandatum read on Holy Thursday also depicts Jesus as the "Teacher and Lord" who humbly serves his disciples by performing this extraordinary gesture which goes beyond the laws of hospitality, the element of humble service has accentuated the celebration of the foot washing rite in the United States over the last decade or more. In this regard, it has become customary in many places to invite both men and women to be participants in this rite in recognition of the service that should be given by all the faithful to the Church and to the world. Thus, in the United States, a variation in the rite developed in which not only charity is signified but also humble service. - Read more at USCCB
"This is the latest statement of this Secretariat on the question. No subsequent legislation or instructions have necessitated a modification in the statement."

Top photo:  Evidently there is a trend amongst Protestants of the bride and groom washing one another's feet.  I used the photo because it reminded me of Christ the Bridegroom washing the feet of his disciples.

Christ the Bridegroom

A note to BG of Crown of Stars Blog

Dear BG, I'm sorry for my unkind words in my com box.  I misunderstood some comments and replied without charity.  Please forgive me.

I wish you well and continuing good recovery from open heart surgery.

Anti-papist sentiment.

Yet nothing has changed for me.

Years ago when I returned to the Church and the sacraments, progressives and dissidents were establishing their roots.  Devotion to the Blessed Sacrament, Our Lady and the rosary, as well as obedience to the Holy Father were considered pre-Vatican II.  The Holy Father was often derided - especially Paul VI after Humanae Vitae - it all went downhill from there.  Odd visionaries and locutionists - ostensibly traditional Catholics, promoting devotion to Our Lady, promulgating their private revelations, and so on, also distanced themselves from the Pope, claiming the Pope had been replaced by an impostor, who allowed heresy to flourish.  Their silly messages continue to be spread, and people continue to be led astray.

I didn't follow them.

Today the same old thing is happening again - this time by faithful Catholics, who claim the rights of apostles and saints to resist the Holy Father to his face, claiming he is teaching error, that he may be a heretic, or even deranged.

I don't follow them.

At Fatima in 1917, Our Lady told the children that if her requests for conversion, penance and reparation were ignored, among other suffering, the "Holy Father will have much to suffer."  All of the Popes since the Council have had much to suffer.  For me that's pretty much a sign the Holy Father remains Christ's vicar on earth.  No matter how bad things get.

At Akita - if the message is to be believed - Our Lady said that in the end the only thing that will remain will be the sign left by her Son, and the prayers of the Rosary.  What could that sign be but the Holy Eucharist.

I have the Rosary, the Eucharist, and the Pope.  That is what I have always had since I returned to the Church.

I do not follow blogs that malign the Pope or foment doubt as to how the Holy Father is guiding the Church.  I especially do not read posts by anyone presuming to resist the Holy Father to his face or by those who have the audacity to take upon themselves the task of publicly correcting what he says, or pointing out that which he may not do.  Be they priest or layman.  Therefore, please do not embed links to such websites in my combox.  Get your own blog.


A blessed Triduum to all.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

More on Judas

Pope Benedict describes the betrayer as a sycophant.
"[...] a sycophant who bows down before the anonymous power of changing moods and current fashion." Not a 'master of evil' or some scary, demoniacal figure. - Benedict XVI
I agree.  He goes on to point out that Judas felt let down by Jesus - because he expected something different from him.  This too works in with my meditation from yesterday.

We envy and seek revenge because we don't get what we want - because we are not recognized and appreciated to the degree we imagine we deserve.  I'm like that.

How can I repair?

The cup of salvation I will raise ...
I will call on the Lord's name.

This morning I reminded myself of how St. Francis had many Masses said as he recovered from his illness and went through his conversion.  Conversion is ongoing - it isn't confined to a moment, or an experience, hence we can never rest on those signal graces, thinking of ourselves as having arrived or as something we won, or achieved, even as something which sets us apart.  "From my hidden faults save me!"

Those of us who aren't priests, or may not be able to attend Mass every day, much less able to afford to have Masses offered - we can still participate in the saving action, we can still offer the cup of salvation in atonement and reparation.  We can spiritually unite ourselves to Christ's saving action in the Eucharist - the memorial of his Passion.

We can also offer the Chaplet of Divine Mercy, which is analogous to the Holy Sacrifice, since we offer the body, blood, soul and divinity of Christ to the Father - incessantly.  That is what takes place at Mass, that is what priests throughout the world do when they offer Mass.  We can participate in that - in our prayer; the Office, Lectio, aspirations which help us to recollect ourselves throughout the day, and very simply, in the prayers of the chaplet.

Then of course, there is Our Lady's rosary.  What if we prayed many rosaries as Our Lady instructed Bl. Francisco Marto to do?  What if we prayed the Divine Mercy chaplet incessantly as our Lord instructed St. Faustina to do?

Today I pray for all the people I've treated unjustly, unkindly, and insincerely - to please 'management' or people I wanted to impress and gain favor with.

"Perhaps he is (Judas) jealous of any intimate relationship Jesus has that does not include him.  This jealousy and revolt against a gentle, loving Jesus pave the way for the devil to enter his heart.  Satan then can take over and inspire Judas to betray Jesus and hand him over." - Jean Vanier

* Jacques Fesch (April 6, 1930, Saint-Germain-en-Laye – October 1, 1957, La Santé PrisonParis) was the murderer of a French police officer, who became such a devout Roman Catholic while in prison awaiting execution that he has been proposed for canonization as a saint. 

St. Benedict Joseph Labre

I've decided St. Benedict Joseph was not mentally ill, contrary to what modern experts have claimed.

"The layperson is a layperson and has to live as a layperson with the power of baptism, which enables him to be a leaven of the love of God in society itself, to create and sow hope, to proclaim the faith, not from a pulpit but from his everyday life. And like all of us, the layperson is called to carry his daily cross — the cross of the layperson, not of the priest." --Cardinal Jorge Mario Bergoglio in an interview, now Pope Francis

And Happy Birthday to Pope Benedict XVI! 

Wednesday of Holy Week


Tuesday, April 15, 2014

The story of Judas scares me.

Blood and water flowing from the side of Christ as a font of mercy for us, I trust in you.

I never really considered myself a Judas, that is I never  wanted to place myself in a meditation that he showed up in.  In fact I always tried to avoid thinking too much about the man who betrayed Christ.  He was just a warning for me, something to be feared and put off.  This year is different.  The Gospel passage where Judas feigns innocence, asking Our Lord, 'is it me who will betray you?'  'surely it's not me?' has resounded in my heart.

I often wondered if Judas was somehow really innocent, yet it seems to me his questions demonstrated that he actually knew Our Lord was referring to him.  

Did you ever do that?  Not in big things like Judas of course.  But - he who is not faithful in small things will not be faithful in big ones.  So.  Did you ever do something like that?  Get caught in a lie?  Then dissimulate and act as if you were innocent when someone suggested that you were lying?  Or pretended that you didn't even know they knew you knew they knew you lied?  Only later to try and cover up your lie with protests that those you betrayed somehow betrayed you?  Crazy logic - blame the victim for your little lie.  Convincing yourself you were somehow justified.

I think Judas thought he was not only full of good intentions, but that he himself was good; I'll bet he never thought of himself as a liar or a thief.  I think he felt in control, in charge of his life, like the faithful steward doing his duty, although he was surely the dishonest steward.  Somehow he justified himself.  I think he always did that - and he believed he was virtuous.  Today we might call that denial.  He demonstrated that when he complained about the ointment used to anoint our Lord, suggesting it should have been sold and the the proceeds given to the poor, perhaps reserving a small 'fee' for himself.  He perhaps had 'good' intentions, but it wasn't his call.  Of course he did 'good' things - he followed Jesus, he prayed and evangelized with him, he was a 'faithful' disciple and Jew - he kept the Law.  So what happened?

He could have repented.  Our Lord would have forgiven him as he did Peter.  As he did Zacchaeus.

"Look, half of my possessions, Lord, I will give to the poor; and if I have defrauded anyone of anything, I will pay back four times as much." - Luke 19

How can I repay?  How can I repair?  I repent.  I pray for those I have offended and ask their forgiveness.  I'm sorry.

But who can detect all of his errors?
From hidden faults acquit me.

From presumption restrain your servant
and let it not rule me.
Then shall I be blameless,
clean from grave sin. - Ps. 18 

The Holy Father's good advice to seminarians.

“Dear seminarians, what you are preparing for is not a profession, you are not training to work in a business or a bureaucratic organization,”
"[T]he seminary is not a refuge for the many shortcomings we may have; it is not a refuge for psychological problems or a refuge for those who do not have the courage to go on in life and see the seminary as a place that will defend them. No, that is not what it is. If that is what your seminary was it would become a mortgage for the Church! No, the seminary is there for people to move forward, along this path and when we hear the prophets exclaim the word “Woe” it should lead you to reflect seriously on your future. Pius XI once said it was better to lose a vocation than to risk accepting a candidate who is not sure. He was a mountain climber, he knew about this things.” - Pope Francis
It is also very good advice for anyone considering religious life.  As the Holy Father pointed out: "There are many ways, in the Church, to bear Christian witness and there are many paths that lead to sainthood."


Unofficial Translation – Ad Usum Privatum
O God, merciful Father,
who choose the small to confound the powerful of the world,
I thank You for having given us, in the seminarian Rolando Rivi,
a testimony of total love for Your Son, Jesus, and the Church,
unto the sacrifice of his life.
Enlightened by this example, and through Rolando’s intercession,
I ask You to give me the strength always to be
a living sign of Your love in the world,
and I beg You to grant me the grace of [here state your petition],
which I ardently desire. Amen
Prayer from Fr. Jerabek's Blog