Quick post.

Sad post:
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News today that Amy Winehouse died from alcohol poisoning - she drank too much in one sitting.  Women cannot physically drink as much as men.  I feel sad.  Don't drink alone - sometimes you lose track of how much you are consuming and never know when to stop.
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My family drank too much - those of us who stopped frequently ended up as dry drunks.  Believing we were much nicer when we drink - many of us returned to the bar to sweeten up - until we realized it didn't help - we really were assholes.  LOL!  Not really - we just lacked discretion and manners and any sense of propriety.  Drunks always make excuses BTW.  Both my brother and my dad died of alcohol related illness.   
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But what is a dry drunk?
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What is a dry drunk, and the ‘dry drunk syndrome’ as it is sometimes called? It can best be described as someone who fits one of two conditions.
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The first is someone who has given up drinking and drugging and not made any internal or emotional changes, they stay the same but the substance is gone. Or in the second case what was once someone abstinent and on a progressive path of recovery has slowly returned to chaotic and unrealistic thinking.
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Being active in your addiction sets up many trains of thought, attitudes, feelings, and actions that are problematic. Simply removing the alcohol or drugs without changing these underlying factors will produce a dry drunk syndrome. The dry drunk really refers to a condition and not the person. It is important to recognize a reversion back to our old ways of thinking and acting, or lack of progress in moving forward in recovery.
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The dry drunk can be a precursor to the beginnings of relapse, the AA Big Book describes this condition as being “restless, irritable, and discontented”. This set of attitudes can apply to anyone who is chemically dependent, or even those were not. - Finish reading here.
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"Prayer cannot be accompanied by self-indulgence."  Teresa of Avila said that - but never forget she also said "prayer is the trap door out of sin".  So keep trying and never drink like Amy Winehouse if you happen to relapse.  And go to confession.