"It is better for you to enter life maimed or crippled than to have two hands or two feet and be thrown into eternal fire." - Matthew 18:8
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I love the holy fools, many of whom were pretty nuts - but somehow theologians are loathe to admit that - I guess because there can be no disorder in perfection. I'll buy that - but our ways are not God's ways. Humanly speaking, the uber-righteous Christians appear to believe that every one should be completely healed and well adjusted at some point in their quest for a balanced life of Christian discipleship, happiness, and prosperity. Obviously, in their opinion, crazy people need to be healed, victims of abuse and torture need to get over it, and so on, and so on, and so on. The fact that some saints walked around bearing the stigmata, or that Christ's wounds remained present on his glorified body doesn't seem to impress them. In their opinion, wounded, sinful human beings need to be made completely whole in order to be acceptable to the theologically elite.
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Saints such as Simeon Salus seem to refute such concepts... depending upon what interpretation of his life one reads of course.
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A quick glimpse of the Saint's life.
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For many years Simeon lived as an ascetic, monk, hermit in the Palestinian desert. (BTW -see how that works? Hermit is the last 'level' for those of you who like status - the saint starts at the beginning, having first been trained in the ascetic and monastic life - then the monk could apply for his hermit 'certificate'.) Anyway. Simeon left the desert after 29 years or so, and returned to his village.
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The 'former' monk walked into the village dragging a dead dog. He was immediately mocked for being a fool, a crazy man. Thus he lived amongst the outcasts, the poor, and the harlots. He kept very bad company. He ministered and cared for those who needed acceptance the most - and he shared their shame.
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Soon, a few local Christian suspected his sanctity, although most thought he was either a hypocrite or genuinely out of his mind. The respectable few who admired his sanctity were often disappointed when they witnessed so many eccentricities and inconsistencies in his behavior - throwing nuts at women in church for instance. The saint loved humility so much he was convinced one can only attain it perfectly by loving humiliations. Thus he took the last place even amongst those whose lot he shared - the wounded, the lame, the outcast and the sinful.
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An early biographer, Leontius of Neapolis wrote:
"Symeon played all sorts of roles foolish and indecent, but language is not sufficient to paint a picture of his doings. For sometimes he pretended to have a limp, sometimes he jumped around, sometimes he dragged himself along on his buttocks, sometimes he stuck out his foot for someone running and tripped him. Other times when there was a new moon, he looked at the sky and fell down and thrashed about.
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While the saint was there (his village in Emesa), he cried out against many because of the Holy Spirit and reproached thieves and fornicators. Some he faulted, crying that they had not taken communion often, and others he reproached for perjury, so that through his inventiveness he nearly put an end to sinning in the whole city.
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To the Deacon John, the only one who knew his holiness:
I beg you, never disregard a single soul, especially when it happens to be a monk or a beggar. For Your Charity knows that His place is among the beggars, especially among the blind, people made as pure as the sun through their patience and distress. . . . [S]how love of your neighbor through almsgiving. For this virtue, above all, will help us on (the Day of Judgment)." -
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Rev. Alban Butler writes of St. Simeon:
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He was a native of Egypt, and born about the year 522. Having performed a pilgrimage to Jerusalem, he retired to a desert near the Red Sea, where he remained twenty-nine years in the constant practice of a most austere penitential life. Here he was constantly revolving in mind that we must love humiliations if we would be truly humble; that at least we should receive those which God sends us with resignation, and own them exceedingly less than the measure of our demerits; that it is even sometimes our advantage to seek them; that human prudence should not always be our guide in this regard; and that there are circumstances where we ought to follow the impulse of the Holy Spirit, though not unless we have an assurance of his inspiration. The servant of God, animated by an ardent desire to be contemptible among men, quitted the desert, and at Emesus succeeded to his wish; for by affecting the manners of those who want sense, he passed for a fool. He was then sixty years old, and lived six or seven years in that city, when it was destroyed by an earthquake in 588. His love for humility was not without reward, God having bestowed on him extraordinary graces, and even honoured him with the gift of miracles. The year of his death is unknown. Although we are not obliged in every instance to imitate St. Simeon, and that it would be rash even to attempt it without a special call; yet his example ought to make us blush, when we consider with what an ill-will we suffer the least thing that hurts our pride. -
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No one would take on this vocation on their own or without counsel, yet oddly enough, providentially some people find themselves in a similar predicament. Some souls struggle with compulsions, anxiety disorders, sexual disorders, personality disorders, alcoholism, drug-addiction, eating disorders, clinical depression, bi-polar depression, as well as so many other physical disabilities. Many, many people just don't get over it and the majority of are never healed - they live with it however. And as the saints demonstrate, the grace of God, merciful love, enfolds them. Even with those who find healing, their wounds remain as a kind of stigmata - a sort of sharing in the sufferings of Christ, a sharing in the sacred stigmata of Christ. Those who are well do not need a doctor - hence it is our wretchedness, our misery that most attracts Christ.
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If we think we are standing we need to be careful lest we fall. If we believe we are wise, we best become a fool. As St. John of the Cross says, "salvation is so uncertain '. Little Therese understood this humility of heart, which is why she took her place 'at the table of sinners'.