You have died and your life is hidden with Christ in God.
God doesn't always answer our prayers according to our expectations - just like we do not always know how to pray as we ought, hence the Holy Spirit makes intercession for us according to the will of God.
The other day in a very low moment I wrote about praying for death. What does that mean? For me, this morning, in the present moment, it means exactly this: "Are you not aware that we who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? We were indeed buried with him through baptism into death, [...] You must think of yourselves as being dead to sin and living for God in Christ Jesus." - Romans 6: 3-11
"During this Lent I would like as St. Paul says, 'to be buried with Christ in God,' to be lost in this Trinity who will one day be our vision, and in this divine light penetrate into the depths of the Mystery.'" - Blessed Elizabeth of the Trinity, from Magnificat, meditation for Thursday March 10.