Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Stuff like that.



9:00 AM
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I got up late this morning. I no longer sleep well at night. I imagine the old people at daily Mass think I'm self-indulgent and lazy because I'm not there - especially on adoration day. Like I said, I imagine stuff like that.
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So the little person who delivers my mail just climbed up the steps to try and put it in my mail box - I was told once, when the mail was wet and blown all over the hedge, that Post Office rules state the carrier is only required to do one, one arm-hand motion to insert the mail into the mail opening; That's it - they are not obliged to trouble themselves to insure all the items get all the way in the box.
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Anyway, locally we received less than an inch of snow over night, and there remained a dusting on the stairs. The little post-lady screams at me through the window, where I sat sipping my coffee, reading my prayers, "Shovel your walk!" Remember the angry look on the Munchkins faces when Dorothy's house landed on the witch? (Oh, that's right, they were happy the witch was dead. Well, you know the look I'm talking about.) That was my mail lady this morning. Why are women allowed to work anyway? Crap, I usually try to have the steps cleaned for her because I know her short little legs have such a hard time climbing my stairs - but I got up late you little... Just wait until next Christmas - no Harry and David lollipops for you!
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Oh! Oh! And get this! She drives - house to house, up and down the street. Stopping and starting the mail van, climbing in and out with great effort. If one was watching from space it would appear the van was driving in slow motion with the emergency break on.
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Oh who cares. It doesn't matter.
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10:00 AM
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Why is all the Black Power socialist crap in the background of Solange Knowles "I Decided" music video - and with Bill Clinton wearing an Afro? Watch for more propaganda as we move forward beyond next weeks Inauguration. I have never - in my life - been so disappointed in the man the citizens of the United States elected as president.
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10:01 AM
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Read this: "I find it surprising that good faithful priests and people, who would never dream of disobeying the Church normally, flock to the latest site of an apparition, despite the instructions of the local bishop. It is often their first introduction to liberalism or pick n mix Catholicism." - Source.
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I couldn't agree more - so many Catholics complain about dissident Catholics or liberal Catholics, often failing to realize they are one too.
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10:15 AM
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So anyway. "Doubt". The ending of "Doubt" was good - but the lines seemed too obvious a tie-in with the title, although, aside from being too convoluted for the dialogue, I think the following may have been what Sr. Aloysius meant when she cried, "I have doubts too."
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"I struggle sometimes too, it isn't necessarily that I doubt, but I don't always have all the answers immediately at hand either. Doing the right thing, even when it goes against what secular culture deems natural, isn't always obvious in the moment of decision. I struggle... the choices I made in faith are painful to fallen nature. I too can be swayed, or rather tempted by my emotions, confused by contrary arguments from those who are simply seeking some semblance of happiness in an otherwise dismal existence. I am often interiorly challenged, convicted, limited, by my own shortcomings, sins, and defects. I cry out in the night in the face of my own inability to solve the mystery of good and evil in the world. Nevertheless I believe - I hope - I trust in God... and that is all I have."
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10:30 AM
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What's with some people who have to correct grammar and spelling all of the time when they screw up and mis-spell on their own blogs too? One guy wrote in comments on his blog - to another commenter, "Watch your use of hyphens." What?
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10:31 AM
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It is so cold the birds and the squirrels are not even out eating the food I placed in the feeders. Mrs. Rabitowitz has been out there however. I see her tracks.
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10:32 AM
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Fr. Blake also asks on one of his posts, "What is it that makes Catholic-lite so attractive?" I think he knows the answer, but I'll write what I think.
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Not everyone is able to accept the fullness of Catholic teaching in the beginning of their conversion, yet they have a very deep, very real longing for God. We see this in the Gospel - when people cannot at first accept all of the teaching, they go away sad, oftentimes mad. Some stay, but when things get really challenging, such as happened in John's narrative about the Bread of Life, more go away. Nevertheless, some remain, even stumbling across solid teaching - but only after growing disillusioned after a long time spent in the outer courts of the temple. Then, someone, or some one's example of patience and kindness, or even some event, suddenly moves them to embrace the fullness of Catholic teaching.
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In the meantime, heterodox parishes can be gateways for those not ready for full immersion into Catholic teaching. I know a few former dissident Catholics who came out of such parishes and came around to accept Roman Catholic Church teaching in total. Of course, heterodox churches can be gateways to hell too - but not everyone is going to heaven.
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(And just because I wrote this does not mean I approve of unsound teaching or departing from sacramental formulas or the like. These things can be corrected.)
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10:55 AM
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Some of my friends may have noted that I have been rather upset since shortly after Christmas. I heard a story about a priest, outwardly faithful, orthodox - he got up in the middle of the night for adoration - did all the right Bishop Sheen things for keeping a priest faithful - and yet was sleeping with at least one person he was guiding spiritually. In the name of love. I guess it was his interpretation of Theology of the Body. I know crap like this happens - we've seen it with more than one EWTN priest.
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Remember, no one is ever too old to be scandalized. I have to repent every day. (Authentic scandal causes other people to sin or fall away from the faith.)
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So anyway, that is why I repeat things like: "It doesn't matter." "I'm sick of all the religious BS." And, "Words in a world of lies." Or quote Psalms such as; "Help O Lord, for good men have vanished: truth has dwindled from the sons of men. Lies they speak, one to another, with lying lips, with a false heart." - Ps. 11 "All have left the right path, depraved every one: there is not a good man left, no, not even one." - Ps. 13
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So yeah. It's not that I doubt.

20 comments:

  1. Terry play my latest you tube REAL LOUD!!!!

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  2. David2:09 PM

    Re; your musings on the closing lines of Doubt....yeah I felt that what she meant was that she was so interiorly tormented by having doubts yet having to keep up the role, the exterior, of Sister-Has-It-All-In-Control-Canonize-Me-ASAP. The role expected of her in her capacity as superior, prinicpal, experienced nun.

    OR maybe...just maybe...she was having doubts about having to wear early 19th century widow tweeds and bonnet, being tormented by envious thoughts of what life must be like in a traditional wimple and coif, with a simple black veil "like all the other Congregations in the archdiocese".

    WHO KNOWS??????

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  3. Anonymous4:27 PM

    Terry, when I started reading your blog in 2007 I thought you were so spiritual - but quite frankly the last year, I haven't always been edified by the posts you have done. They are really worldly and sometimes cynical. Why be surprised at priests and religious falling - they are frail human beings too, and without grace that's what we do, but it is the hypocrisy of it that is so disheartening. Nevertheless, I know of many wonderful priests and religious who work tirelessly for God in a hidden way, but they don't make the news - which is a pity, because they would edify and encourage to believe more, and stop well meaning souls from becoming bitter.

    Don't lose heart Terry - look up again, God bless you,Gail

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  4. Hope you fell better Tomnus - still got that cough, huh?

    Thanks Gail, I actually haven't changed - I'm always like this. Never seek edification from mere mortals - you will always be disappointed. This post is pretty much about me making the same mistake... I thought I was rather clear about that.

    David - Meryl Streep would say we were both right. However, I'm never right.

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  5. Jackie - works for me! LOL!

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  6. Ha- yeah I actually do. It won't let go, though I ditched the fever this morning. (Go me!)

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  7. I don't know what the heck "annonymous" is talking about! When i read the second paragraph at 10:15, i.e. what Sr MEANT to say, I thought it was like a prayer. The most humble and sweet and direct prayer. The kind that goes straight to the heart of Jesus.

    I know I could identify wiht it, at least. Thanks, Terry.

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  8. Hi Terry,
    I shall remember that young man and his mother in my prayers this evening.

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  9. 10:25 AM
    Mail matters, I care. My mail lady is a gossip, and she tells me stuff about all of the neighbors on my street. I try to discourage her. She drives like a bat out of hell up my private driveway, and I am worried that she will hit Joseph, or one of our amimals.(Our daughters don't play in the driveway) She honks her horn about 20 times ,scareing the crap out of everyone within a mile. I yell at her, but nicely because I am afraid that she may report me to some sort of authorities because of the weird crap that she brings to my house.
    Sarah is always buying strange lab type equipment. I keep wondering if the mail lady is thinking that we have our own "meth" lab or something. Sarah distills, and creates her own makeups, and soaps. She always has something strange brewing- literally.

    10:37
    I don't disobey my church, I am just confused that's all.

    10:38
    Munchkins drive me crazy.I can take 'em. ;)

    10:39
    "Watch your use of hyphens"?
    Yeas thay can bee vary dangeruss.

    http://charliehamiltonjames.com/Artists/13053/Mediums/Medium_810200731256PM_hyena%20yawn%20(1).jpg

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  10. 10:25 AM
    Mail matters, I care. My mail lady is a gossip, and she tells me stuff about all of the neighbors on my street. I try to discourage her. She drives like a bat out of hell up my private driveway, and I am worried that she will hit Joseph, or one of our amimals.(Our daughters don't play in the driveway) She honks her horn about 20 times ,scareing the crap out of everyone within a mile. I yell at her, but nicely because I am afraid that she may report me to some sort of authorities because of the weird crap that she brings to my house.
    Sarah is always buying strange lab type equipment. I keep wondering if the mail lady is thinking that we have our own "meth" lab or something. Sarah distills, and creates her own makeups, and soaps. She always has something strange brewing- literally.

    10:37
    I don't disobey my church, I am just confused that's all.

    10:38
    Munchkins drive me crazy.I can take 'em. ;)

    10:39
    "Watch your use of hyphens"?
    Yeas thay can bee vary dangeruss.

    http://charliehamiltonjames.com/Artists/13053/Mediums/Medium_810200731256PM_hyena%20yawn%20(1).jpg

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  11. I have to say that the line "Watch your use of hyphens" really made me laugh. It's the kind of obscure comment that - always makes me - laugh.

    (I hope the grammar police don't come for me now!)

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  12. Terry, just so you know....i don't read your posts for edification, though sometimes they do edify me...i come here because you are my kinda friend. I could live with less posts about homosexuals, but you are who you are and you write what you write... you come across as being a bit wierd and 'out there' sometimes but i lurve you all the same and appreciate your quirkiness.

    I was cracked up at the thought of some stumpy legged post office woman suddenly appearing at your window and shrieking at you to clear your path. Too funny!

    I never clear my paths. That's mens work.

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  13. I agree with ukok completely, only I would add that sometimes you make me angry , or worried for you, and sometimes your scary. Yep , you are. Your also super gentle, and sweet. Your very intelligent ,and know what the Catholic church teaches. I don't know much , and I love to learn real down to earth teachings about the saints, and our church. I have found that after linking to a few of your readers THEY are terrifying , I am serious. Hell is not full yet, and the demons are reading your stuff. -my opinion only.Which I am entitled to have since I am breathing ,and all.

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  14. Hey, Kirk ! Wont you make us another cake before Lent starts. Maybe something with a Mardi Gras theme only not as wicked. ;)

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  15. Thanks everyone - Belinda - don't you think we are somewhat alike?

    Deb - I prefer eccentric over wierd. LOL! Thanks though.

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  16. So much so that it's creepy. Only your a lot smarter than I am , and I am waaaay cuter than you are. Which makes up for my lack of intellect. :0

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  17. And, I love Billy Baldwin too, but there's no way that I would add that to my profile now. You are the only person on the planet that put that on your profile.
    I am praying for Billy's return to Catholicism, and for him to drag his brothers with him.

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  18. See, for the longest time I just thought that Belinda was a person that Terry made up and posted under to stimulate conversation. But I know better now because Terry would never say this his readers are demons.

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  19. Thom your cracking me up!!
    I looked at the site meter at the end of this page to see who peeks in.
    I nearly died of a coronary. I never seen sex photos like that. Well sex photos much at all really.
    (itway asway aygay exsay ootay)

    I nearly hurled all over my desk top. Now why would someone who looks at that stuff want to know more about Jesus ,and his church?
    Some people are quite divided.

    Hey I wrote about demons yesterday - stop over for a visit. Oh, sure it lacks intellect, and deep theological thinking , but it's fun for me just the same.

    http://belindabensonsbrain.blogspot.com/

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